Monday, September 03, 2007

and then there were five......

On this last long weekend of the summer, when people are sad about the season ending, I feel like everything is about to begin. My new life starts now. Well it started about a month ago, but I finally feel ready.

You see I was suppose to be getting ready for the hospital today. Labour Day how fitting. My twins were scheduled to be delivered via c-section tomorrow. But they had other plans. My water broke on July 29, yep just five days after I moved into my new house and my life has been a rollercoaster ride ever since. Here is the abbreviated version....

July 29 - 32 weeks pregnant and my water breaks at 5:30 a.m. I tiptoe downstairs past my sleeping inlaws to wake my husband who is sleeping in the basement. Triage here we labour so we wait. Later that day my Mom, Dad and sister fly in to visit me. I am so relieved to have them here.

July 29 - 31 - Hanging out on the 7th floor of Mt. Sinai, waiting for something to happen. Still no labour. My family keeps me entertained with regular visits between shopping trips. At least they look good and are having fun!

Aug. 1 10 a.m. - My Dad and sister decide to fly home. My sister is on vacation and has left her husband and son at my parents home. The nurses tell me if nothing happens in 48 hrs. of water breaking, I'm probably looking at another two weeks.

Aug. 1 - 11 a.m. - Baby "b's" heart rate is too high which indicates distress. Still no labour, but looks like it's showtime. We try and reach my Dad and sister before they get on the plane. No luck.

Aug. 1 - 2:23 and 2: 24 p.m. My boys are delivered via c-section just as my Dad and sister are landing in S.S.M. Everyone is healthy and happy. My husband and Mom were pros in the delivery room.

Aug. 4 - My Dad flies back and I get released from hospital.

Aug. 4 - 14 Travel back and forth to Mt. Sinai to feed babies.

Aug. 14 - Boys get transferred to Toronto East General Hospital. I was opting for St. Mike's where my daughter stayed, but no such luck.

Aug. 14 - 27 - Daily visits to TEGH to visit boys. Other than being in the middle of no where, this nursery is beautiful.

Aug. 28 - Sleep over at the hospital. A test run to see if I can feed them myself for 24 hours.

Aug. 29 - Welcome home.

Sept. 3 - As I walk back from the beach, I realise I missed summer completely this year.

Oh well here's to an exciting fall.

Wednesday, July 25, 2007

new digs

At the moment I am sitting on on my new deck, in my new backyard at my new house. It's kind of surreal. I should be doing a million other things like.....
figuring out why my phone isn't working, but instead I'm dreaming up design ideas for birth announcements for my twins. Well techinically I'm writing this blog, but you get the picture.

Yesterday was super hectic. My parents flew in to help (they are the best, considering they we just here last week helping me pack!!!) with the move and even though I felt organized, we were still behind schedule. I guess once again I underestimated how crazy move day can be.

So far I like our new place. The main floor open concept is going to take getting used to though. Gracie is going to love this place. I am missing her terribly, but apparently she is having a ball at the cottage with her grandparents. But really would they say otherwise?

Yikes that's kind of a negative way to end this post. For that I must do an hour's worth of unpacking!

Friday, July 20, 2007

better be home soon

Free time, spare time, alone time whatever you want to call it pretty much sucks for me right now. Being 30 weeks pregnant, huge and uncomfortable doesn't leave you with a lot of options on how to spend a free weekend. That and the fact that I'm moving in four days, so I'm up to my eyeballs in boxes...ahhhhh!

My husband and my daughter left this afternoon for a trip up north and I am heartbroken. Okay maybe lonely and miserable are better descriptions of how I'm feeling. To top it off Gracie is spending the week with her grandparents, which I am completely regretting now. I know in my head it is the right decision. Our nanny is on vacation and I can't care for her properly on my own seeing that I can't lift her or chase after her, so I do need the help. Sorry I'm babbling. It's just that this is the first time I've been away from her. Okay truth be told it's the second time, but the first time was for a night and my husband was with her. This is different. She's older and understands being away from her home and my inlaws well they aren't, how can I say this gently, well they aren't my parents. I know they will take good care of her, but they ....okay I'm going to stop and just try to be positive.

When was the first time you were away from your child? And how did you survive?

Tuesday, July 03, 2007

new house nerves

Only 23 days until the closing date on our new house. While I am looking forward to moving and settling in to our new place before the twins arrive, I'm kinda sad. When I came back from vacation, I realised how much I like our current house. Sure, it's a small, two bedroom house with an unfinished basment but it has character, and I'm going to miss that. It's also walking distance from some of my favourite shops , restaurants and parks .

I think I'm just feeling nostalgic. We went to our new house yesterday and it just seems, well, too new. It's actually an oldish house that the sellers never lived in. I think they just updated it to a blank canvas of hardwood floors and white paint. Don't get me wrong I'm happy with this, it just doesn't seem to have a lot of character. With our current place we had to uncover the hidden beauty which was fun.

My husband keeps reminding me (as does my family) that with the impending arrival of twins and my busy daughter, I don't have time for a fixer-upper house. And they are right, I need move-in-ability. That doesn't stop me from visiting here for inspiration. Anyone have any other suggestions?

I better start packing.......

Wednesday, June 20, 2007

radio silent no more

After a couple of months of radio silence I'm back. I've missed this world. I've been reading some of my favourite blogs whenever I've had the chance but haven't commented, so I guess I've been kind of lurking. But now hopefully I'm back and fully committed. It's not like I haven't had much to say, my life has just gotten crazy busy over the last little while. I'd like to say it is going to calm down, but with the pending arrival of twins, I doubt my life will ever be described as calm! Here's some highlights of the last few months......

got our house ready to put on the market - no easy task with a busy 18 month old
looked at a million (okay slight exaggeration) open houses
finally bought a house the week before we put ours on the market
sold our house in less than a week - thank goodness
got pnemonia - who gets pneumonia, especially when they are pregnant????
decided after much encouragement from colleagues, family and friends to take an early maternity leave
enjoying some much needed r&r up north with my family

So there you have it, not the most interesting post, but at least I'm back.

Saturday, March 31, 2007

great expectations

There are some things in this world you can count on....
I expect there will be traffic during rush hour,
I expect spring to follow winter,
I expect to get paid every two weeks,
but I was not expecting to become pregnant and let alone be expecting twins!

And I really wasn't expecting go back to work after a year long maternity leave pregnant. (Either was my boss - thank god he's such a good guy). These last three months have been quite unexpected. Now I know it sounds odd, when you hear that someone is surprised to learn they are pregnant. Was I taking any precautions not to get pregnant...well no, but still, who thought it would happen so fast? I sure didn't.

We wanted to have our children close together, that was the plan. But truthfully I'm not a planner, I'm a kinda a fly by the seat of my pants girl. Yeah, well those days are gone!!

So here's how we found out about our great expectations. I was just getting used to the fact that I was having another baby. And getting over the nausea and complete exhaustion. We were at an ultrasound appointment. My husband wasn't even going to come with me, but showed up at the last minute. There we were confidently sitting in the waiting room, looking at all the newly pregnant people, and thinking "they don't know what they're in for." We were calm. We'd been through all this before...old hat to us.

It was finally our turn for the ultrasound. No big deal. I'm lying there with my eyes closed, getting some rest. My husband is on his blackberry (bad I know). The technican asks me how I got pregnant. Ahh what? I stumble... I'm thinking the old fashioned way. She confirms my age and that I'm not on fertility drugs. We don't pay much attention. Then she makes reference to two babies, to the resident in the room. I agree thinking, "yes Gracie will still be a baby when the new one comes and so I will have two babies." Then she says, "No, I see two babies."

What??? This grabs our attention. My husband moves closer and says "check again." I can't speak.
"Yes, I'm seeing two babies. Twins"
I try to speak but I can't. I'm just stammering.
The resident asks what kind of car I drive.
"A volkswagen jetta."
"Not anymore," he laughs "You're getting a mini van."

The techician shows us the two babies and prints out some pictures. Yep, this is real. We are in shock. We go back to the waiting room in silence. No talking, just blank stares. A half hour ago, we were the confident couple now were are terrified.

That was eleven days ago. While I am no longer in shock, the news quite hasn't sunk in. Don't get me wrong I am not unhappy, just overwhlemed.

I was not expecting this.

Thursday, March 29, 2007

seeing double

one + one
yep, you guessed it.

I'm expecting twins.

Sunday, March 18, 2007

perfect ending

Organized. Calm. Relaxed.

I like this feeling. It's been far too long since I've felt like this. A perfect ending to the weekend and the right way to meet a new week.

Clean house.
Stocked fridge.
Fresh, crisp sheets.
Sleeping baby.
Happy husband.

Sometimes it's just the simplest little things that make all the difference. Ahh, I could get used to this. Oh and I did the most amazing yoga class today. Just what the doctor ordered.

All rewarded with beautiful flowers.

Saturday, March 17, 2007

almost spring cleaning

I had to change the title of my post because I just looked out my window and saw a winter wonderland. I love snow, but I was starting to let myself dream of snowsuit-free bundle ups and boot-free mornings. Oh well. For all intents and purposes spring will spring in our house this weekend.

Slipcovers are getting washed and ironed,
winter sweaters are getting packed away,
front hall pictures are changing,
drawers are getting organized,
closets are getting de-cluttered and
all will be rewarded with fresh flowers.

It's sad but I need treats to motivate me to clean. I so wish I was a clean freak, but I'm not. I'm more like "oh no someone is coming over", better make the place sparkle. And this little place does need to shine this weekend. You see if I post it I will feel compelled to do it. That and the fact that our real estate agents is coming over to take a peek. Oh and the biggest reason, my mother. She's flying in tomorrow evening and staying to watch Gracie this week.
Yikes, I better get started!

Thursday, March 15, 2007

things I learned from my nanny

It's been forever since I've been here and so much has happened since my last post. Ah where do I begin? Well for starters Gracie is no longer a baby, she's a full fledged walking, babbling, getting into everything toddler. I can't believe she's 15 months old today. Yikes!

The biggest change is that I am now a working mom. That's kind of a silly term isn't it? I mean all mothers whether they've gone back to their jobs or not, work their asses off. In fact I think it was much harder being at home then going to work. But being at home with Gracie, as difficult as it was at times was so much more fun and way more important. Which brings me to the title of my post - all the things my nanny has taught me in the last 3 months.

First off I love my nanny. It was a fairly long process trying to find her, but she was well worth it. I was so concerned about having a stranger in my house and more importantly caring for my daughter. And so many people (mostly my nosy mother's group) all had very strong opinions about the nanny vs daycare. Personally I don't care what you choose for your child, if it's right for your family great. Anyway enough of that rant.

five things my nanny has taught me.....(or why I love my nanny)

1. mismatched socks, crazy-coloured outfits and even staying in pajamas all day can ma your kid look even cuter

2. It's okay to let people see the real you, you know the one that's late for a meeting, crabby with her husband

3. Kids are messy. Even people without kids are messy and it's okay if other people sometime see this.

4. You can't control everything. Perfectly behaved child throws temper trantrums at inopportune times, it happens.

5. My nanny knows how to roll with the punches, and has taught me this valuable lesson (well sort of according to my husband) I still have a long way to go.